A Clean Slate

A Clean Slate I write this post in all humility and gratefulness to everyone who took the time and effort to appreciate and encourage me in my new venture. Thank you for believing in me. I really needed that. So, as a consequence of a setback in my life, a major one, I have decided to restructure my life and especially myself. I have taken my future in my hands and made it a priority. I am trying to work on my strengths and looking at ways to overcome my weaknesses. I have prioritised certain sections of my life. I know I have been a good person to all who have crossed my path. I have never done anything for anybody with ulterior motives. I have always tried my best to make life easy, comfortable and good for anyone who needed me. I have always been the first one to see the good in a person, irrespective of their past. I have encouraged, motivated, helped and guided many to work towards achieving their goals, ambitions, a better life and most importantly to be a good human being. Yes, my ideology, principles and values are different to many people. But they are something that keeps me grounded, real, decent, and most times forbids me from crossing the line of temptation. It has kept me strong in times of adversity and has helped me come out of many crisis situations with my honour and dignity intact. My techniques are harsh but I make no excuses for that. In today's world, people expect you to play many characters, but with a mask. They don't want to see the real you, they want to see their version of you. Now that is something that I have not been able to achieve. I have tried, believe me. Because of my emotional attachment, I tend to sacrifice a lot. But, in the long run, I found that it left a hollow, a vacuum inside me. I was not with people who elevated me, but rather pulled me down to their levels. I guess this has been a blessing for me as it has finally given me the courage to break away from the negativity and rebuild my self in the way I started out. Yes, I will be alone, yes people will misunderstand even show me contempt, some may even bad mouth me. But, I am expecting all of that and more. It's OK for me. Those who believe in my brand of personality, will naturally come into my life and stay. In the meantime, I have distanced myself from all forms of fakeness and superficiality. I have limited my time on Facebook because it had started giving me a false sense of importance. Something that did not appear real. It had put me into a mold that was constantly craving for justification from strangers. I do not need that. I did however realise how few of my 'good wishers' actually were concerned about me. My heartfelt thanks to those who reached out to me during that time. Feel really proud of me, at this point. The journey has just begun.